Ellie Goulding has revealed her grandfather took his own life ‘a few years ago’.
The singer, 32, took to her Instagram page on Monday to detail her own battle with mental health, suffering from ‘imposter syndrome’ and coping with ‘the ups and downs’ of fame.
Alongside a photograph of her swinging on a rope over a river, Ellie wrote: ‘Today I’m thinking about my grandfather, who took his own life a few years back.
‘I wish I had spoken to him more, and wish we could have had even the smallest clue of how unhappy he was.’
Honest: Ellie Goulding took to Instagram on Monday to share a candid post about mental health – and revealed that her grandfather took his own life a few years ago
The singer – who boasts a stellar recording career and has recently married her partner Caspar Jopling – used the opportunity to express that ‘whoever we are… we all have a right to feel what we do’.
She also shared that she suffers from ‘impostor syndrome’ when it comes to her career in the public eye.
She went on: ‘Sorry this is a little late, but I really wanted to say something about Mental Health Awareness, for what it’s worth. We all have a right to feel what we do, whatever it is, whoever we are.
‘Exhilaration, madness, absolutely nothing at all, confusion, chronic sadness… (I can sometimes feel all these things in the space of a few days).
‘I am beyond relieved that more light is being shone on the complexity of going from being a touring artist/ performer to going straight back to normality on a regular basis. Thank you to those artists who have spoken so candidly about it lately.
‘I know I chose this job but nothing could have prepared me for the ups and downs that come with it. I know for sure that a lot of my anxiety has come from what they call “imposter syndrome” not believing in myself enough and thinking that I don’t deserve happiness which sometimes results in sabotaging your own success.
Alongside a snap of her swinging on a rope over a river, Ellie, 32, penned: ‘Sorry this is a little late, but I really wanted to say something about Mental Health Awareness, for what it’s worth. We all have a right to feel what we do, whatever it is, whoever we are.
Candid: The singer – who boasts a stellar recording career and has recently married her partner Caspar Jopling – used the opportunity to express that ‘whoever we are… we all have a right to feel what we do’
‘I keep my head straight by training every day (running and boxing mainly) and although it is so hard sometimes to be motivated, the feeling of blood pumping through my veins and a human body performing the way it so impressively does reminds me how cool it is to be alive.
‘I admire those who get out of bed every morning and seize the day, even when they’re not feeling too great. That requires a lot of courage. Please know that you are doing amazingly and I’m proud of you. Ellie xx [sic].’
Ellie married Caspar, 27, in an idyllic ceremony in York Minster Cathedral in August with stars such as Orlando Bloom, Sienna Miller and James Blunt in attendance.
The wedding party then let their hair down at a lavish reception hosted at stately home Castle Howard.
Bride: Ellie married Caspar, 27, in an idyllic ceremony in York Minster Cathedral in August with stars such as Orlando Bloom, Sienna Miller and James Blunt in attendance
The congregation were also treated to an eccentric sermon by John Sentamu, the Archbishop of York, which finished with him uncorking a bottle of prosecco as a symbol of the newlyweds’ ‘exhilarating love’.
Dr Sentamu then handed them gifts, including a Ugandan wicker basket filled with treats and a bonsai tree to symbolise that marriages can last for years.
Ellie also invited her favourite composer, Norway’s Ola Gjeilo, to perform at the service, alongside the choir of London’s Royal Holloway University.
For the extravagant ceremony, Ellie looked absolutely exquisite in her traditional white Chloé bespoke gown designed by Natacha Ramsay-Lévi, while Caspar wore a suit tailored by Savile Row’s Huntsman & Sons.
Her wedding dress was said to have taken over 640 hours to make and featured the couple’s initials embroidered on the veil and collar.