Emily Atack has admitted she gets ‘very lost in her life’ and ‘puts herself down’ after being ‘led to believe’ she’s ‘quite useless’ and a ‘bit of an airhead’.
The actress, 32, confessed she’s hoping to ‘figure things out’ once and for all so she can ‘feel secure enough to be at peace’.
She made the candid comments while speaking to MailOnline and other press to promote her new BBC docuseries, Trailblazers: A Rocky Mountain Road Trip.
Oh no! Emily Atack has admitted she gets ‘very lost in her life’ and ‘puts herself down’ after being ‘led to believe’ she’s ‘quite useless’ and a ‘bit of an airhead’
In the three-part programme, the former Inbetweeners star is joined by Mel B and Ruby Wax on a U.S. road trip as they re-trace the footsteps of intrepid Victorian explorer, Isabella Bird, whose exploits have largely been lost to history.
When asked what she learnt about herself during the journey, she said: ‘I envy people who can be on their own. I always kind of say I hate being alone. I hate being by myself.
‘But actually what I discovered doing things like that is because, even though we’re doing those things together and we’re supporting each other, it’s very much a sort of independent mindset that you have to be in for certain things when you’re physically trying to grip onto a mountain or you’re figuring out your horse on a mountain.
‘It’s a very, sort of, independent thing and I always feel like I surprised myself every time I do something like this. Like when I did the jungle and things like that, I surprised myself at how strong I am really because I’m a very emotional person and very openly emotional person.
Candid: The actress, 32, confessed she’s hoping to ‘figure things out’ once and for all so she can ‘feel secure enough to be at peace’
‘I always kind of… I put myself down with things that I can’t do. I always sort of think, “Well I won’t be able to do that. I’m not strong enough, I’m not strong enough and not tough enough.”
‘But I actually always surprise myself that there’s actually a very independent person in there. I think I’ve been sort of led to believe that I can be quite useless, physically quite useless and and I’ve been labelled a bit of an airhead really for a lot of my life but it’s just not the case.
‘Every time I do things like this and I’m supported as well, with amazing people around me like Ruby and Mel, I can really with the right support and guidance I always surprise myself at how much I can actually achieve, I think.’
The former I’m A Celebrity star went on to confess she ‘gets very lost in my life sometimes’ as she continues her search for ‘what it is I’m looking for’.
Coming soon: She made the comments while speaking to the press to promote her new BBC docuseries, Trailblazers: A Rocky Mountain Road Trip (L-R: Emily, Ruby Wax, Mel B)
She said: ‘I go and see these kind of things, I experience and appreciate them in the moment and they’re amazing and I really hope I can bring a piece of it back with me but, I do, I slip back into my old ways when I leave a situation, I think most people do.
‘It’s one of those things. When I’m in the moment, I always make sure I really appreciate and take in that moment.
‘Yeah, I’m still figuring things out, I still get very lost in my life sometimes and I’m still trying to find what it is I’m looking for.
‘I don’t know whether it’s peace and when Mel was just saying about how she can walk around by herself and take in the nature, I’d love to be able to feel secure enough to be at peace like that by myself and do those things, I try really hard but it’s a work in progress.
Confession: When asked what she learnt about herself during the journey, she said: ‘I envy people who can be on their own. I always kind of say I hate being alone. I hate being by myself’
‘I go on these trips and I get these amazing opportunities and I take them in and I remember them and they change me in a way but I do just come back and sometimes lose sight of all that stuff again.
‘I really would like to train my brain maybe to do what Ruby and Mel do more and take myself away and be more independent like that.’
At a time when most explorers were men, Yorkshire-born Isabella was a trailblazer. Being prescribed ‘mountain air’ to cure her malaise, in 1873 Isabella set off on her travels across the globe to find exactly that.
Travelling alone, she crossed the lawless American Wild West, riding 800 miles on horseback through the Rocky Mountains of Colorado.
She befriended outlaws, climbed mountains and faced grizzly bears, in what was a restrictive era for women in Britain.
Using her original 1873 book, A Lady’s Life in the Rocky Mountains, as inspiration for their own historic American adventure, Ruby, Mel and Emily paid homage to the forgotten pioneer.
They explored the people, places and curious customs of an ever-changing America, while reflecting on the changes in Western society over the last 150 years and their own experience of womanhood.
Trailblazers: A Rocky Mountain Road Trip begins on Monday November 28 at 9pm on BBC Two.
Good watch: Trailblazers: A Rocky Mountain Road Trip begins on Monday November 28 at 9pm on BBC Two (L-R: Emily, Ruby, Mel)