Home and Away star Tammin Sursok shares her fears about ageing as she prepares to turn 40: ‘I’m nervous of what that represents’
Tammin Sursok is turning 40 in a matter of weeks.
And the former Home and Away star has some trepidations about the milestone birthday.
The 39-year-old tells this week’s issue of Stellar Magazine that she’s worried about how ageing will affect her career.
‘I’m not nervous about turning 40, I’m nervous of what that represents’ she told the publication.
‘I think the fear of turning 40 is just I don’t want to work less. I remember having my first kid and they said I was no longer an ingenue – I was 29 years old’.
Tammin Sursok is turning 40 in a matter of weeks. And the former Home and Away star has some trepidations about the milestone birthday. Pictured in this week’s Stellar Magazine
Tammin has been candid about her body image struggles in the past, admitting that she ‘desired to be wanted, to be lusted over’ as a young girl and struggled with an eating disorder.
Posting a series of heartbreaking stories to her Instagram in honour of International Women’s Day, the actress reflected on the devastating effects she suffered being objectified by men.
The first story she shared was about a young boy she had a crush on who told her she needed to lose weight at the age of 15.
She revealed she was ‘paralysed in fear and lust’ when he approached her, saying: ‘My heart stopped. I had daydreamed for years that this moment would come.’
‘I’m not nervous about turning 40, I’m nervous of what that represents’ she said
But her dream came crashing down when the boy brutally told her: ‘You need to go to Jenny Craig [weight loss program].’
Sursok moved on to her next story which recounted a time when she had dropped to 45 kilograms in weight by forcing herself to throw up after a meal.
‘I had spent the last 40 minutes ramming my chapped and raw knuckles down my throat. I knew this routine well. I had become an expert at lying,’ she said.
‘I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and saw my eyes; they looked like they were bleeding. I weakly smiled at my reflection. I was 100 pounds (45 kilos), I thought, now people would love me.’
The former Home and Away star said she ‘desired to be wanted, to be lusted over’ as a young girl and struggled with an eating disorder
‘I think the fear of turning 40 is just I don’t want to work less. I remember having my first kid and they said I was no longer an ingenue – I was 29 years old’ she added
Finally, Sursok told the story of the 30-year-old man she dated at the age of 21 who she let make fun of her body because ‘I was taught in school that boys that like you make fun of you’.
The South African-born Australian finished her post by adding she used to cry over her post-baby body and spent over 30 years being told ‘the only way to happiness, worth and love was for other people to view my body as good enough’.
She said: ‘To all my fellow women warriors that have ever struggled with self-worth, body image and the fear to break free of old belief systems, I see you. May we all love ourselves.’
Tammin lives in Nashville with husband Sean McEwen and their two daughters, nine-year-old Phoenix and four-year-old Lennon.
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Read more in this week’s issue of Stellar Magazine