Jill Duggar’s explosive new memoir Counting the Cost has caused quite the stir since it was released on September 12.
As well as detailing her romance with husband Derick Dillard and the birth of son Samuel, the book also sheds a light on what it was like growing up in the Duggar household and being raised by parents Jim Bob, 58, and Michelle, 57.
Along with Jim Bob’s alleged threats to cut Jill out of the family inheritance, she also claims that her father treated her worse than her ‘pedophile brother’, Josh – who is currently serving a 12-year prison sentence for receiving and possessing child pornography.
The mother-of-three was the only one of the Duggar children who took part in the Amazon docuseries Shiny Happy People: Duggar Family Secrets, which aired in June and dove into the dark side of the radical organization behind the famous family: the Institute in Basic Life Principles.
Jill Duggar’s explosive new memoir Counting the Cost has caused quite the stir since it was released on September 12
Jill claimed that her father, Jim Bob Duggar, threatened to cut his kids out of their inheritance
Jill also opened up about her upbringing with her parents, Michelle and Jim Bob Duggar
With the help of husband Derick and writer Craig Borlase, Jill has laid bare her truth and gone against her father’s wishes by sharing many details about her controversial upbringing and Jim Bob’s behavior.
A description of the book claims it is ‘a remarkable story of the power of truth and a moving example of how to find healing through honesty,’ and it’s clearly a hit as this week, Jill revealed on Instagram that it was an instant New York Times Bestseller.
Fans have flooded Jill with compliments since its release as one person told her it was ‘well written,’ and another said she had shown a ‘tremendous amount of grace.’
Here, DailyMail.com takes a look at the biggest revelations from Jill’s eye-opening memoir, Counting the Cost.
Admits pervert sibling Josh was present for 2015 Fox News interview with Megyn Kelly
One particularly disturbing chapter of Counting the Cost sees Jill recall the time that she and her younger sister, Jessa, took part in an interview with Megyn Kelly after it was revealed that Josh had molested four of his siblings, including them.
Jill, now 32, and Jessa, now 30, sat down with Megyn in June 2015 for a Fox News appearance, in which they confirmed they were sexually assaulted by their older brother, but angrily denied he was a pedophile.
Despite the shocking circumstances, Josh was actually allowed to be present for the entire interview and sat on a couch just feet away from his younger sisters as they defended him in an effort to repair the family’s shattered wholesome image.
In the book, Jill admitted that Josh being there ‘was like having a bandage ripped off a deep and open wound,’ but she didn’t question her parents Jim Bob and Michelle about why he was allowed to be present.
Jessa (left) and Jill were interviewed as part of a Fox News special in 2015
Megyn Kelly visited the Duggar home to conduct the interview with the two sisters
Josh pictured with his wife and mother of his seven children, Anna, in February 2015
The former reality TV star said the experience was ‘so painful’ and she felt there was ‘nothing’ that she could do to ‘block any of it out.’
Writing about the television interview, Jill explained: ‘On that day we had taken our seats beneath the bright lights at the Big House and did what we could to stand up for our parents.
‘Answering all Megyn’s questions, with Josh watching from a couch just out of shot, was like having a bandage ripped off a deep and open wound. It was agony, so painful that I didn’t really pause to ask why Josh was allowed to be there in the first place.’
She continued: ‘What was worse was the fact that I’d hoped it would calm things down. It hadn’t. The paparazzi were still chasing us, the internet still feasting on us, poring over every statement from the network, every new photo, every new angle.’
‘My nightmares were getting worse and there was nothing I could do to block any of it out. All I was doing was surviving from one breath to the next,’ Jill admitted.
During the explosive chat, the two sisters largely downplayed what went on between themselves and their older brother, calling the inappropriate touching ‘subtle and mild.’
Accuses father Jim Bob of treating her ‘worse’ than her ‘pedophile brother’ Josh – who is currently in prison
In the memoir, Jill opens up about her rift with her 58-year-old father, Jim Bob
Jill accuses her father of treating her ‘worse’ than her ‘pedophile brother’ Josh
In one particular social media snap, Jill looks sad as she holds a copy of her new book
In the memoir, Jill goes into detail about her rift with her father, 58, telling him: ‘You treat me worse than you treat my pedophile brother.’
Jill says the comment came when she and Derick, 34, confronted Jim Bob about money, as they felt they were not properly compensated for their contributions to the family’s one-time TLC hit 19 Kids And Counting.
She confirms that a mediator was present when she and her spouse met with Jim Bob and Michele over the issue and wrote: ‘There have been some very hurtful things that have happened, and so we wanted to sort it all out. To have a good discussion together.’
Jill that her father’s ‘body language had shifted’ in the meeting as she describes: ‘He was sitting very still, lips tight, eyes locked in a scowl that had been sculpted out of rock.’
Jill says that her mother described a letter she sent them over the financial issues as ‘the most disrespectful thing’ she ever read.
She says she could tell that Jim Bob ‘wasn’t listening to’ her and ‘had his own list of things he wanted to talk about.’
Jill claims that Jim Bob said: ‘You sent me a text message, Jill. You said I was verbally abusing you. I was so offended by that, too. You know in your heart that’s not right. Are you going to apologize for that?’
Jill continues in the book: ‘Pops must have sensed what I was thinking, because he suddenly stood up and said, “You’re not going to apologize? Really?” His voice was loud, and there was an edge to it that I’d rarely heard.’
Jill says her father ‘took a step toward’ her in ‘an act of aggression’, as she continues: ‘He towered over me, his whole body fueled with anger. My face flushed red. My eyes filled with tears.’
Jill says he told her: ‘You know why you’re crying, don’t you? Your conscience is talking to you. That’s why.’
She says that she told him in response: ‘You want to know why I’m crying? It’s that you think I’m some kind of horrible person just because I wear pants and have a nose ring, and yet you see that girl outside and praise her.’
Jill adds: ‘That’s why I’m crying, Daddy. I’m evolving and changing, just like that girl out there, but you can’t see it. You treat me like I’m a prodigal who’s turned her back on you. You treat me worse than you treat my pedophile brother.’
Claims Jim Bob offered to send son-in-law Derick Dillard to rehab after he drank just one beer
Jill revealed that her father offered to send Derick to rehab after he was pictured with a beer
Jill had some help writing her book with her husband Derick and also Craig Borlase
In chapter nine of the book, entitled Real. Not Fake, Jill explains how her father once offered to send her husband to rehab after he drank a single beer at dinner.
This particular segment of the memoir begins with Jill recalling the first time she drank a Pina Colada on a date night with Derick and didn’t bother hiding the cocktail glass when he took a photo.
Jill says her father didn’t react to the picture, but wrote: ‘I guess he had gotten the hint a few months earlier when he read online that Derick had been seen drinking a beer.’
She continues: ‘Pops had made contact soon after and offered to send Derick to the same rehab facility Josh had been to, in the hope of curing Derick’s clearly raging alcoholism,’ before confirming that her husband swiftly said no.
‘Since he’d never been drunk or ever had more than two beers in any one sitting, Derick declined,’ she wrote.
Jill and her siblings were raised in a very strict household and, of course, alcohol was banned – as well as dancing, listening to mainstream music, and dating without a chaperone present.
Reveals she and son Samuel almost died during his birth in July 2017 after he suffered a stroke
Jill candidly spilled how she almost died bringing son Samuel into the world on July 17, 2017
Between Jill’s uterine rupture and Samuel’s suffering a ‘brain bleed,’ both mother and son (pictured together in 2020) had a close brush with death during the terrifying labor process
Jill and Derick are also parents to sons Israel, eight, and one-year-old Frederick
In a particularly harrowing part of the book, Jill reveals that she came close to death in July 2017 while giving birth to her second child.
She explains how she was rushed into surgery for an emergency C-section after an uterine rupture before finding out that the newborn had suffered a brain bleed as well.
Samuel, now six, was born on July 17, 2017 and, in Jill’s telling, everything seemed normal at first.
‘Everything was looking great,’ she writes of the initial interlude after her water broke. But, she continued, 36 hours later, ‘I was a long way from great.’
Each contraction was making her feel too weak to keep pushing, which is when doctors first told her that the baby’s heartbeat was slowing down.
‘I knew what it meant. It meant the baby was potentially in distress,’ Jill describes.
The medical professional then made the urgent call to move forward with the delivery by way of C-section.
‘Then came the pain,’ Jill writes. ‘And the screaming. I realized after a minute it was my own.’
Samuel (pictured second from right) narrowly escaped permanent brain damage from his stroke – his older brother, Israel, eight, is pictured at right
The happy couple pictured with two of their three sons. The TV star describes the pain of Samuel’s birth as ‘nothing I’d ever known’
The TV star describes the pain as ‘nothing I’d ever known’ — and was all the more terrified at the degree of the discomfort given that she’d already had an epidural, which should have effectively numbed her lower half.
‘If the pain was strong enough to break through drugs that strong, something was seriously wrong,’ she writes.
The emergency was dire enough that her doctors couldn’t even wait on an anesthetist to proceed with the C-section – and began the procedure using only local anesthesia.
Jill had suffered a uterine rupture that had created a hole – in husband Derick’s words ‘as big as my fist’ – and she had lost half her total blood volume.
She survived thanks to a transfusion, and much to her and her family’s relief was able to keep her uterus.
Newborn Samuel, who had been ‘unresponsive at birth,’ was transferred to a NICU at a different hospital and Jill was not able to meet him for the first time until four days later.
It turned out that the infant had suffered a brain bleed.
Doctors initially told Jill and Derick that it was unclear to what extent – if any – Samuel had suffered permanent brain damage until the 18-month mark.
However, three months after welcoming the youngster, Jill received a call from their neurologist, who informed her: ‘What I’ve seen on the scans is a miracle. There’s no lasting damage at all.’
Needless to say, the news brought immeasurable relief to the couple, with Jill writing, ‘It was like we’d been released from death row.’
While Jill was initially worried she wouldn’t be able to continue having children, she and Derick went on to have a third child, Frederick, in July 2022.
The couple had previously welcomed their first kid, Israel, now eight, in 2015.
Reveals Jim Bob banned her from going to the family home, Big House, when he wasn’t present
Derick and Jill pictured with her mother, Michelle, and father Jim Bob in happier times
Jill has broken many of the strict IBLP rules and now sports a nose piercing and dresses how she wants to
Another shocking claim is also made in chapter nine of the book when Jill recalls that she wasn’t allowed to visit the family home – unless her father was there.
Referring to the time when her dad’s mother passed away, Jill reveals she was driving back to her hometown and it was only ‘a couple of months after Pops had told me not to go to the Big House when he wasn’t there’.
Jill admits she felt ‘nervous’ as she arrived at the property that she had called home for almost eight years.
After sharing a hug with Jim Bob that day, Jill says things began to shift between the pair of them.
‘Pops still didn’t want me going over to the Big House unless he was there, but he did start inviting Derick, the boys, and I along to more family events from time to time, sometimes even pressuring us to show up.’
Claims Jim Bob threatened to cut his kids out of their INHERITANCE if they dared to speak out against him
Jim Bob allegedly threatened to cut any of his kids out of the family inheritance if they spoke out against him and his wife, Michelle
The reality series documented the family’s (pictured together previously) day-to-day lives as adherents to the cult-like Christian church known as Institute in Basic Life Principles, or IBLP
While promoting Counting the Cost ahead of its release, Jill claimed that her dad cut his kids out of their inheritance if they dared to speak out against him.
Jill said that her dad issued a very stern warning via text after she first announced the release of her bombshell memoir back in May.
Jill told Today: ‘My dad texted the entire family group text (since we’re still in the group thread) and he was just saying, “This is so sad,” and basically threatening that if anybody speaks out against him or my mom that they would be cut out of the inheritance.’
She said that despite her father’s reaction she refused to back down over her memoir, adding: ‘I really felt almost a calling to write it because I felt like people were still being led astray or harmed by the teachings that my family had promoted.’
The former TV star also claimed that Jim Bob suggested the Duggar family ‘owes their lives’ to Bill Gothard – the shunned minister who founded IBLP.
Gothard, now 88, resigned from the IBLP board of directors in 2014 amid allegations he had sexually harassed and molested women who worked for the organization – which he denies.