Katie Price has revealed her alter ego Jordan makes her feel ‘sick’ as she enjoyed her first sober Christmas after giving up alcohol.
The mother-of-five, 42, rose to fame in the 1990’s as brash glamour model Jordan, who often hit the headlines with her scandalous behavior.
And speaking this Christmas, Katie admits she doesn’t ‘ever want to be like that again’ as she reflects on her former wild, partying past.
The way she was: Katie Price has revealed her alter ego Jordan makes her feel ‘sick’ as she enjoyed her first sober Christmas after giving up alcohol (pictured in 2002)
These days Katie is happily settled with boyfriend Carl Wood, 31, with the pair having enjoyed an alcohol-free Christmas with Katie’s five children Harvey, 18, Junior, 15, Princess, 13, Jett, seven and six-year-old Bunny.
And reflecting on her past, Katie told how she pleased that she no longer relies on booze or drugs to deal with her issues, noting that she ‘hates’ who she formerly was and feels ‘sick’ when thinking of her old ways.
Speaking to The Sun, she said: ‘I wrote a powerful letter because they make you do that to your demons. I don’t even think about doing it now. It makes me feel sick; I’ll be the best person now. What I mean is, I’m focused and back to normal.’
She went on to say that she’s happier now and her children have ‘seen a difference’ in her, before adding that ‘didn’t even think about’ having her usual Tia Maria and Coke festive tipple.
Changed: The mother-of-five, 42, rose to fame in the 1990’s as brash glamour model Jordan, who often hit the headlines with her scandalous behavior
Discussing her new healthier lifestyle with Carl, Katie told how she has no alcohol in her home as they ‘don’t drink’, adding that this is ‘the new normal’ for her.
Looking back on her days as Jordan, she continued: ‘I look back to how I was, and I would never ever wish that on anyone. I never knew when I’d had enough and I’d become all exhibitionist — I don’t ever want to be like that again.
‘I’ve grown, I’m stronger and I don’t need to run away or numb my emotions any more. It’s been a bad year for a lot of people, but for me it’s been a good year because I’ve met Carl and I sorted myself out.’
Never again: Speaking this Christmas, Katie admits she doesn’t ‘ever want to be like that again’ as she reflects on her former wild, partying past (pictured in 2003)
Katie recently opened up about her decision to seek professional help and become an inpatient at The Priory – which she described as ‘the best thing she’s ever done’.
She bravely admitted that she got to ‘breaking point’ where she felt she ‘couldn’t cope’, but thankfully had a wake-up call and put herself into rehab.
Elsewhere, Katie has revealed her hopes of being engaged and pregnant with Carl’s baby come the New Year.
She revealed that she hopes to enter the New Year ‘with a baby on the way and a ring on my finger’ as she is not getting ‘any younger’.
The star added that she knows the car dealer is ‘the one’ and cannot wait for him to pop the big question.
Love: These days Katie is happily settled with boyfriend Carl Wood, 31, with the pair having enjoyed an alcohol-free Christmas with Katie’s five children Harvey, 18, Junior, 15, Princess, 13, Jett, seven and six-year-old Bunny
Old life: ‘I don’t even think about doing it now. It makes me feel sick; I’ll be the best person now. What I mean is, I’m focused and back to normal’ (pictured in 2002)
Kate has been utterly inseparable from her new beau Carl since they went public with their budding romance in July.
And she told The Sun she and her beau of six months have been ‘trying’ for a baby, and she will find out if she’s pregnant on December 29 when her ‘period is due’.
She explained that Carl did not propose at Christmas as it is ‘too cliché’ but that her boyfriend does have big plans to propose in 2021.
Fresh start: Discussing her new healthier lifestyle with Carl, Katie told how she has no alcohol in her home as they ‘don’t drink’, adding that this is ‘the new normal’ for her
Carl also bragged that when they finally do marry it will be like ‘nothing ever done before’ and plans to send her into floods of tears with his proposal.
Katie’s divorce from ex Kieran Hayler will be finalised in time for New Year which will leave her free to marry Carl.
The reality TV star and her third ex-husband, 33, separated in March 2018 after five years of marriage and have been waiting almost two years for a divorce.
Plans: Elsewhere, Katie has revealed her hopes of being engaged and pregnant with Carl’s baby come the New Year