Mark Wright held back his tears as he revealed his new family travel series felt like delving into a long therapy session.
The former TOWIE star, 36, tours Britain in his new BBC series A Wright Family Holiday, with his brother Josh and dad Mark Senior, and said it made him reflect on his life and how his busy career impacted his loved ones.
In one episode of the show, Mark confesses: ‘Being away from my family has happened gradually, and it’s gotten more and more… I’m not proud of it.
‘I can’t say no to work because I’m so in fear of losing it all. I have this real struggle overcoming that fear – that one day it’s genuinely all going to be gone.
‘It spirals, doesn’t it? If I feel like I’m going to lose it all, that makes me work more, see my family less, and makes my head feel a bit more crazy.
Emotional: Mark Wright held back tears as he talked about drifting from his family amid fears he’d ‘lose it all’ during his new travel show A Wright Family Holiday
Family: The former TOWIE star, 36, tours Britain in his new BBC series A Wright Family Holiday, with his brother Josh and dad Mark Senior, and said it made him reflect on his life and how his busy career impacted his loved ones
‘I know I’ve not been me and who I should have been the last few years, and that’s what this (holiday) is about.’
He admitted to his father: ‘I pride myself being the best son, but dad, I think that comes from you.
‘I genuinely think that comes from watching you go through the things you had to go through in life to get back on your feet.
‘I think I’m so scared every day that everything that I’ve got is going to end.’
Mark, who is married to Michelle Keegan, is reassured by Mark Sr and Josh in the series, who say the reality star is taking on too much work.
He continued: ‘I know that I’ve not been me, and who I should’ve been the last few years and that’s what this about. Just trying to make up for it.’
The six-episode series will see the trio take time out of their daily routine to reconnect with one another.
They explore the stunning British countryside, idyllic beaches and breath-taking mountains, on a trip packed full with white-knuckle activities, emotional revelations, and plenty of laugh-out-loud family banter.
In one episode of the show, Mark confesses: ‘Being away from my family has happened gradually, and it’s gotten more and more… I’m not proud of it.’
Exciting: The six-episode series will see the trio take time out of their daily routine to reconnect with one another and explore the stunning British countryside, idyllic beaches and breath-taking mountains
Their adrenaline-fueled adventure takes them across the breadth of the country as they mountain bike across the rocky paths of Eryri (also known as Snowdonia), hang glide in the Peak District, skydive in Skegness, quad bike through Northumberland, horse rid in Cornwall and bungee jump off Garry Bridge Pitlochry in Scotland.
The aim of the trip was for Mark and his family to reconnect after Mark Snr nearly died from COVID during the pandemic and also lost his brother, Eddie, to the virus.
Mark said about having a scare watching his dad bungee jump: ‘When dad got to the bottom, where it pulls you back up, his body went completely floppy. He was silent.
‘We absolutely c****** it, thinking he’d passed out. Nobody knows this but we could see the crew running around and someone shouted, ‘I’ll get the defib!’
‘Me and Josh – our hearts are in our mouths until he responds. To this day he says he didn’t pass out and he did it on purpose, but it was a very scary moment.’
Mark Senior married Carol, in 1983, and, as well as Mark and Josh, the couple are parents to fellow TOWIE star Jessica, 37, and youngest daughter Natalya, 22.
New: A Wright Family Holiday airs on BBC One on Thursday at 8pm
Previously speaking about the new adventure, Mark said: ‘I’m absolutely buzzing for this. At this stage in my life I want to do things that I really want to do and love.
‘I’m getting to travel the country, see places I would never normally have seen, take on adrenaline experiences and challenge myself.
‘And I’ll do all of this with two of my favourite people on earth — my two best mates, the bro and my dad. It’s a dream come true and I can’t wait. It’s gonna be one hell of a ride.’
A Wright Family Holiday airs on BBC One on Thursday at 8pm.