Demi Moore shared new details of her previously unreported pregnancy during her marriage to Ashton Kutcher and shared a photograph of her baby bump before she miscarried at six months when she was 42.
The actress spoke with Diane Sawyer on Good Morning America to promote her new memoir, Inside Out. On Tuesday, the second portion of their interview aired. In it, Moore reflected on two of her three marriages, to Bruce Willis and Ashton Kutcher.
She also revealed the painstaking lengths she went to to try to save her relationship with Kutcher, who was 15 years her junior.
Despite having three older children from her first marriage, she was desperate to have a baby with Kutcher.
They became pregnant in 2003 shortly after dating, when she was 42, but miscarried six months into the pregnancy. It was a secret at the time.
Moore reveals in the book that she had picked a name for the baby girl – Chaplin Ray.
This is a never-before-seen image of Demi Moore carrying Ashton Kutcher’s baby in 2003 before she miscarried at six months pregnant
Moore and Kutcher are pictured the same year they met. She said they went through IVF ‘quite a few times’ to try to have a baby during their marriage
On Tuesday, Moore, now 56, recalled being told by the doctor that the baby had no heartbeat.
‘You could see combination of his dread and it shifting then immediately in to matter of fact, practical, information. Because it was unquestionable. There was no heartbeat,’ she said.
The pair tried again to have children ‘quite a few times’ through IVF but nothing stuck.
Reflecting on their relationship, Moore said she lost sight of the family she had because she was trying to create another one.
‘I can’t even bring fully to words how lost and desperate, confused… I really lost sight of everything that was right in front of me which is the family I had.
‘The weight that it put on Ashton, it’s kind of a natural thing to pull back when somebody’s clinging too tight,’ she said.
She broke her 20-year sobriety and started taking pills, at her worst hitting 12 Vicodin pills a day.
‘It definitely got up there,’ she said of her drug use.
By the time she and Kutcher met, she’d had three children with Bruce Willis. She said they did a ‘magnificent job’ of making each of their children feel loved despite splitting after 13 years together.
Moore an Willis got met, got married and became pregnant within four months of meeting in 1987
Moore said she lost sight of the family she had with Bruce Willis by trying to create another with Ashton, her third husband. She is pictured with Willis and their daughters, Rumer, Tallulah and Scout
Moore, pictured during her interview on Tuesday with Diane Sawyer, also reflected on her 12-pill-a-day Vicodin habit and how she broke a 20-year sobriety during her relationship with Kutcher
She met Kutcher shortly after returning to Hollywood to film Charlie’s Angels.
‘I was a 40-year-old who had a big life and Ashton’s adult life was just beginning. I didn’t see all that. I was inside of it , I just felt like a 15 year-old girl hoping somebody liked me,’ she wrote in the book.
She was excited to be with someone younger, she said, because she had grown up so quickly after a traumatic childhood.
‘I think that I had been responsible for so much of my life and all of a sudden this window opened up where I was safe, I had money. He loved my children, it wasn’t something he feared.
‘He seemed to be comfortable with the enormity of the ex-husband. I felt like I was not coming with baggage, I had trunks,’ she said.
In 2003, Moore learned for the first time that Kutcher had been unfaithful. She received the news in a Google alert moments before stepping onto the red carpet.
On Tuesday she revealed that she called him and asked him if the report was true. He admitted it ‘right away’.
Moore returned to Hollywood aged 40 to film Charlie’s Angels (above). The film is pictured in 2003
‘I asked if it was true and he admitted it right away. I think my response was, “Are you f*****g kidding me? That was it. I think that I could barely take a breath.’
The pair stayed together and married in 2005. They split eight years later.
Now, Moore said she was devastated not only because their marriage had ended but because it represented the loss she had felt her whole life.
She earlier revealed that the man she thought was her biological father was not. Her stepfather killed himself when she was 17 after he divorced her mother, an alcohol who let at least one man sleep with her when she was 15 for money.
‘I really know that there are parts of what occurred with this relationship ending that were a level of devastating for me that wasn’t really just about that relationship. It was about my whole life.
‘It was about being the two-year-old that wasn’t safe. This really represented that I’m not lovable. I’m not deserving and that’s not about him that’s all just about me,’ she said, reflecting on how she felt about the end of her marriage to Kutcher.
She also reflected on Tuesday on her trailblazing Vanity Fair cover where she posed naked and pregnant for Annie Liebowitz.
‘I love it. I literally thought there is no way they would ever do it and not because I thought it was so risque or shocking, I just was so fascinated with why is it being seen as like obscene?’ she said.
Moore also made the point that while the age difference between she and Kutcher fascinated fans, her ex, Willis, is due to marry someone 23 years his junior and no one has batted an eyelid.
‘It’s so silly. Part of it is we’ve been conditioned societally to look at the value of a woman being tied to her fertility. Like what would an older woman have to offer?’ she said.
One of the most shocking anecdotes from the book that she shared on Monday was that when she was a teenager, after years of moving around the country, her mother Virginia King began taking her to bars so that they together would get attention from men.
Moore recalled how after one outing, she returned home to find an older man who had a key to their home. She said he raped her then afterwards asked: ‘How does it feel to be wh***d out for $500?’
‘It was rape and a devastating betrayal,’ she wrote in the book.
Asked by Sawyer if she thought she was pimped out by her mother, she said: ‘I think in my deep heart, no. I don’t think it was a straight forward transaction but she still did give him the access and put me in harm’s way.’
Moore was born in New Mexico but her biological father left her mother before she was born.
Moore’s mother Virginia King (left) died in 1998. She had long moved out of her home. She said she was just a teenager (right) when Virginia started taking her to bars to get attention from men
She was raised by her mother and her mother’s second husband, Dan Guynes, who she thought was her real father until she was 13 and discovered her birth certificate.
Guynes was a newspaper advertising salesman and the small family moved around the country frequently.
Both he and her mother were alcoholics and her mother attempted suicide many times.
In her book, Moore recalls trying to save her mother’s life at least once.
‘I remember using my fingers, the small fingers of a child, to dig the pills out of her mouth,’ she wrote.
By her teenage years, her mother and Guynes were no longer together and she and her mom had moved to Hollywood, where the rape happened.
She moved out shortly afterwards, aged 16, and launched her acting career.
Moore is pictured with her mother and her stepfather, Dan Guynes, as a child. She thought Guynes was her biological father until she was 13 when she read her birth certificate. Guynes killed himself in 1980, two years after splitting from Moore’s mother
Moore described her childhood as ‘colorful’. Her small family moved around frequently because of her stepfather’s job
As well as reflecting on her childhood, she recalled the troubles she had in her adult life including a 2012 collapse at a party where she combined a cocktail of drugs.
Moore moved out when she was 16 and began acting
‘I guess the fundamental question was how did I get here from where I started to what I’d experienced, how did i get here – I lost me.
‘If I were to look back I would say I blinded myself and I lost myself,’ she said of the incident.
She was not drinking but was partying with her daughter, Rumer, she said.
In the book, she says she took ‘a hit of nitrous oxide’ then smoked synthetic pot called Diablo.
She also alleged that she broke her 20-year sobriety when Kutcher told her he did not believe in alcoholism and says he pressured her into threesomes.
She said she agreed to do them because she wanted to seem ‘fun’ to her much-younger husband but that they were a ‘mistake’.
Kutcher’s representatives did not immediately respond to DailyMail.com’s inquiries on Monday morning.
Her book will be released on Tuesday
In a statement to UsWeekly earlier this month, a spokesman for the star said: ‘Ashton knew what was coming.
‘He had a heads up on what is in the book.
‘He’s not mad or disappointed.
‘This is Demi’s truth, and he always felt sympathetic toward her.
‘He knows her story and that her upbringing was difficult.’
The pair divorced in 2013 after eight years together.
Her book will be released on Tuesday.
It is dedicated to her daughters and to her mother.
After moving out of her mother’s home, Moore started acting.
In 1980, she married her first husband, Freddie Moore. They were together for five years.