YouTube star Jamie Curry has spoken out about marrying a woman after years of secretly struggling with her sexuality.
The 21-year-old, who shot to fame as a teenager for vlogging under ‘Jamie’s World’, had maintained a low profile on social media over the past few months because she was cooped up with her life.
But the young New Zealand comedy star has finally come clean to more than 1.3 million of her subscribers after battling depression and body image issues.
In an emotional video, Jamie revealed how she found herself not attracted to men or women as her sexuality caused confusion for the last four years.
YouTube star Jamie Curry (pictured) has spoken out about marrying a woman after years of secretly struggling with her sexuality
‘I’d go on dates with guys but I just get bored. I just lost interest,’ she explained.
‘I just thought “what the heck, why don’t I want to do anything with these guys? Why don’t I want a boyfriend? Maybe I like girls”.
‘But I still didn’t want to do anything. I didn’t want to talk to them [girls]. Am I missing something? Did I go through puberty wrong? This doesn’t make any sense.
‘I spent [four years] trying to put this label, trying to find my label, my thing. Am I gay? Am I bi? Am I asexual? Am I pansexual?
‘I know this sounds dumb but it was so important for me to find a label or a place where I could fit in and give me a direction of where I was supposed to go – but I couldn’t find it.’
The 21-year-old woman shot to fame as a teenager for vlogging under ‘Jamie’s World’
Jamie said she was pondering whether she was a lesbian, bisexual or straight – but she still struggled to find an answer about her sexuality
Jamie said she was pondering whether she was a lesbian, bisexual or straight – but she still struggled to find an answer about her sexuality.
‘If I was a lesbian, I would’ve been “cool, I’m a lesbian”. If I was straight, I would’ve been ‘cool, I’m straight”. If I was bi, I would’ve been like ‘cool, I’m bi”,’ she said.
‘But I didn’t seem to like find one that I fit in completely and it just bothered me. I was also gaining weight, I didn’t know who I was, I didn’t know who I love… I just felt lost.
‘I wasn’t happy with myself. To this day, I still don’t really know what my label is or what category I sit in or whatever you want to call it. But I do know that I fell in love.’
Jamie revealed how she has been in a relationship with another woman after falling head over heels for her.
‘I met this person and I was attracted to them, basically instantly, and we were talking and talking… and I was waiting for that point of like me to get bored or have any interest anymore but it never went away,’ she said.
‘That interest grew, and that attraction grew, the relationship grew and I fell in love for the first time ever… and this person happens to be a woman.’
In an emotional video, Jamie revealed how she found herself not attracted to men or women as her sexuality caused confusion for the last four years
Jamie said she has fallen in love for the first time despite spending years feeling confused about her sexuality
Struggling to contain her emotions, Jamie started speaking fondly about her partner, who she has kept anonymous.
‘She’s amazing. I fell in love with the coolest person ever. She’s so beautiful and she’s so funny and I’m listing all the generic things that people list but she’s all of those things and more. She makes me so happy.
‘I’m the happiest I’ve been for a very long time. And because of all of these things I love about her, I asked her to marry me – and she said “yes”. Thank god.’
She explained her family and friends know about their blossoming relationship but kept it secret from her fans until now.
‘I’m finally in the right space with my head and my body. I’m comfortable with myself for the first time in so long,’ she said.
‘You have to love yourself before you can love someone else so I was very lucky she came in at the right time.
‘Also I kept her off everything for a reason and I haven’t said her name if you may have noticed. Basically, I want you guys to take this all in.’
Jamie said she will eventually introduce her fiance to her fans with ‘ease’.
In her 10-minute video, she also revealed how she battled with depression after leaving high school, during which she gained weight.
‘I just became really self-conscious. I didn’t want to be on camera because I just didn’t feel comfortable with myself,’ she said.
‘I could barely look at myself in the mirror, let alone stare at myself for a couple of hours while I edit my face.’