Louise Thompson has revealed she is struggling to leave the house as she battles Post Traumatic Stress Disorder after nearly dying giving birth to her son Leo Hunter.
The former Made In Chelsea star, 31, took to Instagram on Wednesday evening to say she has ‘had a few hard days’ as she continues to recover from her five week stay in intensive care.
Louise, who welcomed her first child with fiancé Ryan Libbey in November, said she has found some comfort in flower arranging as she shared a variety of bouquets and talked about her hopes to ‘push for normality’, however hard that might be.
Tough: Louise Thompson has revealed she is struggling to leave the house as she battles Post Traumatic Stress Disorder after nearly dying giving birth to her son Leo Hunter
The television personality penned: ‘Gosh it’s been a hard few days, but we’re still here and we’re still putting one foot in front of the other not giving up hope for a better and brighter future… mental health is so strange because it’s invisible, so only words can make sense of it to others.
‘Anyway, yesterday there were a few beautiful hours including bath time with Leo and a big roast chicken for dinner. I keep pushing for more ‘normality’ even though it feels really really hard. Right now I don’t even want to leave the house.
‘I haven’t actually worn makeup or snazzy clothes for a while (very unlike me) so instead I thought I’d post some pictures of some of the beautiful flowers that I’ve received or bought and have enjoyed arranging. One of my favourite past times.’
Positives: Louise said she has found small comfort in flower arranging as she shared a variety of bouquets and talked about her hopes to ‘push for normality’, however hard that might be
Strong: The television personality penned: ‘Gosh it’s been a hard few days, but we’re still here and we’re still putting one foot in front of the other not giving up hope’
Former MIC star Ashley James took to the comment section of the post to write: ‘Sending you so much love. Always here to chat’.
TOWIE’s Georgia Kousoulou, who also welcomed a baby boy last year, added: ‘Sending you love’.
Louise gave birth to her first child back in November and spent five weeks in hospital suffering from complications after nearly dying during labour.
Gorgeous: The reality star shared a photo of a spring bouquet filled with freesias, tulips and hyacinths
Small steps: Louise also headed out to the flower stall to pick up a bunch of purple roses and a berry juice
Mum: Louise gave birth to her first child Leo Hunter with fiancé Ryan Libbey back in November and spent five weeks in hospital suffering from complications after nearly dying during labour
On December 23, in a lengthy post, Louise admitted that she ‘never imagined that so many bad things could happen to me, but to dance with death twice brings a whole new view of the world – a stark reminder of how short and sacred life really is.’
While she confessed that she was ‘in a bit of a strange place mentally and physically,’ the new mum said that she was finally at a place where she could ‘see a future where I get to live peacefully on this earth with my son.’
And over the weekend, Louise talked about how she was struggling with PTSD.
Devoted: The reality star called Ryan her ‘rock’ as he cared for their son and visited her every day while she was in intensive care
Louise explained how her ‘road to recovery won’t be linear’ as she noted the highs and lows over the past few days.
In her latest post, she admitted while she is still struggling with fears she is going to die, she has managed some of her daily tasks.
She wrote alongside a photograph with son Leo in a pram as she stood by a flower stall that she has thousands of thoughts each day.
Louise penned: ‘60,000 thoughts passing through my head each day. If I can try and get 30,001 of them to be non anxious thoughts then I am sort of winning. Honestly I’ve never known anxiety like it. It feels inexplicable. But it’s not, and I’m starting to make sense of it.
‘I want to say a big thank you to everyone for the outpouring of love, your kind words, your cards, flowers, gifts and your super supportive/constructive messages… most of all I want to thank you for being so patient, sorry if I’m being slow.
‘The days are moving strangely quickly and I can’t seem to get much done. Even thinking about that sends me into a bit of a panic. I don’t know whether I want to speed up the healing, or slow down the precious moments.’
She shared her journey is not ‘linear’ and there will be ups and downs. Louise wrote: ‘Unfortunately this week hasn’t been as easy as last week, but like any ‘transformation’ i know it won’t be linear, instead my road to recovery will take the form of a jagged line… much like my fitness transformation all those years ago.’
Louise then wrote about the positives she experienced this week, including that she had a meal with her son and partner Ryan.
Strong: And over the weekend, Louise talked about how she was struggling with PTSD. Louise explained how her ‘road to recovery won’t be linear’ but that she enjoyed a meal with Ryan
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