Admin worker, 32, who downed up to 80 drinks a WEEK and hid bottles of wine in her wardrobe for the morning opens up about her secret battle with alcoholism
- Student administrator Heidi, 32, from Melbourne was a secret alcoholic
- Admitted she drank in secret for five years before seeking help with addiction
- Heidi is taking part in a program on SBS about addiction and overcoming it
- Described what it feels like to be an alcoholic and having to drink each day
Heidi use to wake up and takes a swig from a bottle of wine hidden inside her wardrobe to stop her hands from shaking.
The 32-year-old student administrator from Melbourne was battling a secret alcohol addiction which saw her drink up to 80 standard drinks a week.
Heidi’s friends, family and workplace didn’t even know about her battle which went for five years.
‘I’m an alcoholic and I feel like I can’t tell anyone,’ Heidi said in the gripping new program, Addicted Australia, which premieres on SBS on Tuesday 10 November.
‘I think if I said to people that I drink in the morning and I drink at work and I drink when I get home, it wouldn’t make sense, because it doesn’t make sense.
‘There’s this idea that if you are addicted to whatever it is, you’re to be shamed so I don’t say anything.’
Student administrator Heidi (pictured), from Melbourne, has been battling a secret addiction to alcohol for the past five years
Heidi said she never had a problem with drinking until she was in her mid twenties, when her drinking spiralled from being something she just did at celebrations and parties into consuming alcohol every single day in secret.
‘I really want people to understand that alcoholics aren’t just someone holding a paper bag [filled with alcohol],’ Heidi said in the program.
‘This [my life] is also the reality.’
Heidi said her addiction is something she has kept secret from her friends, her family and her workplace.
Heidi knows she has a problem and so she is appearing on the TV show along with nine others struggling or battling addictoin as they go through a six-month treatment program at Melbourne’s Turning Point centre.
‘I’m trying to stop something that… is getting really bad,’ she said. ‘It’s starting to take over my life.’
Speaking honestly about her addiction, Heidi said alcoholism often isn’t what you’d imagine.
‘People think you’ll be stumbling down the street and not able to speak properly, but for me drinking serves the opposite purpose,’ she said.
‘It gives me some sort of a life,’ she added. ‘If I didn’t have it, I wouldn’t know what to replace it with.’
Heidi (pictured) said alcoholics aren’t just people you see stumbling down the street
During the program, Heidi (pictured) and others in the program choose to go into rehab to confront their addictions
During the program, Heidi and others in the program choose to go into rehab to confront their addictions.
Addicted Australia lays bare the challenges faced by families and their loved ones who are searching for a different life.
Heidi goes to a rehab centre and has days without drinking for the first time in years.
‘It’s really confronting to be in a space where you need to ask for help.
‘But I need it and I’m so glad I’m getting it,’ she said.
Addicted Australia premieres Tuesday 10 November at 8.30pm on SBS. For more information, please click here.
For support for alcohol-related problems and addiction you can contact Turning Point Services, or one of the many other services available, speak to your GP, local health service or call a helpline. There are trained telephone counsellors available in every Australian state and territory.
Addiction and alcoholism in Australia
* Around one in 20 Australians struggle with a substance use problem or addiction each year, but only one in four seek help.
* If you drink a lot of alcohol, you might become dependent on it to make you feel good. Your drinking behaviour could be harmful and a form of substance abuse.
* You or someone you know might be drinking too much if they:
– have a strong urge to drink
– cannot control how much they drink
– feel physical effects like nausea, sweating, shakiness and anxiety if they stop after a period of heavy drinking
– need to drink more over time to get the same good feeling
– drink while alone, or hide alcohol from members of the household
– struggle with work, education or relationships for no obvious reason
– lie about how much they drink
– drink early in the day or are anxious about when they will be able to drink
– forget what they said or did while they were drinking
* If you drink too much alcohol, you are at increased risk of illnesses such as heart and liver disease, cancer, diabetes and damage to the brain.
* It can also have a bad effect on those around you as it is a key player in car accidents, family violence and crime.
* The most important starting point for treatment is to talk to your doctor about how to control your alcohol consumption.
Source: Health Direct