She’s had her fair share of ups and downs since bursting into the public eye in 2016.
And The Bachelor Alex Nation has revealed how she has struggled to find a career once the show finished filming, all the while feeling everyone was waiting for her to fail.
In a frank Instagram post on Friday, the single mum also revealed she was toying with the idea of pursuing a career as a writer.
‘It was all so f**king warped’: Alex Nation reveals how her struggle to find her ideal job after The Bachelor triggered anxiety … as she reveals plans to pursue a career as a writer
Writing a lengthy caption alongside a picture of a love heart, Alex explained how she feels her life has been ‘extremely disorganised’ up until this point.
‘I guess the problem being I have an internal battle with myself thinking I should already know. I’m 26, I should probably have it all figured out right?’ Alex mused.
‘At times, I’m completely lost in the dark and I begin to entertain anxious thoughts.
‘On the flip side, when I dig deep inside myself for questions I find wonderful answers and I trust my gut.’
Struggles: Writing a lengthy caption alongside a picture of a love heart, Alex explained how she feels her life has been ‘extremely disorganised’ up until this point
‘I felt this immense pressure that I had to figure out my path and my career effective immediately’: The former reality TV star confessed that after winning The Bachelor, she struggled to find her ideal career path
The former reality TV star confessed that after winning The Bachelor, she struggled to find her ideal career path.
After the show wrapped both Alex and Richie Strahan were signed to modelling agency Chadwick.
‘I felt this immense pressure that I had to figure out my path and my career effective immediately,’ she recalled.
Both aspiring models: After the show wrapped both Alex and Richie Strahan were signed to modelling agency Chadwick
‘I felt as though people were watching in the wings to see if I succeed or fail (its [sic] way juicier if I fail).
‘I came to find I was doing things to impress complete strangers and not myself. It was all so f**king warped I can’t even begin to put it in words.’
Revealing she often put up an amazing ‘charade’ to hide how she truly felt, Alex ended her post by thanking her son Elijah, seven.
Love of her life: Revealing she often put up an amazing ‘charade’ to hide how she truly felt, Alex ended her post by thanking her son Elijah, seven
Answering a fan in the comments, Alex revealed her plans to pursue a career as a writer.
‘I love to write and be uncensored. There may be a blog in the near future,’ she wrote.
Last year Alex split from Richie and began dating her footy teammate, chef Maegan Luxa.
Career change: Answering a fan in the comments, Alex revealed her plans to pursue a career as a writer
The couple confirmed their romance when they were pictured passionately kissing during a boozy night out in August.
Prior to appearing on The Bachelor Alex worked as a venue manager, but has since tried her hand at modelling, posting several photoshoots to her Instagram account.
She also had a short-lived stint on community radio, but her show was axed in January after eight months.
Following in the footsteps of other Bachelor contestants Alex has also done several sponsored Instagram posts – most memorably spruiking period pain medicine with her dog.
Worked in radio: She also had a short-lived stint on community radio, but her show was axed in January after eight months