Jay Z dropped hints on 4:44 that he had cheated on his wife Beyonce. But the Grammy winner has never come out and said outright that he stepped out on her.
That changed on Wednesday when the hip hop legend, 47, sat down with Dean Baquet from The New York Times for a very revealing chat.
The New York-born entrepreneur not only admitted that he been unfaithful to his wife of nine years, but the Young Forever singer also said that therapy kept them from getting divorced.
He also touched on his difficult friendship with Kanye West, but went out of his way to insist he will always love Kim Kardashian’s husband and that they will laugh at these spats when they’re 89.
The word is out: Jay Z sat down with The New York Times for a very revealing chat where he admitted he had cheated on Beyonce. Seen in September
He let it all out: When the hip hop legend, 47, sat down with Dean Baquet he opened up plenty, but he has still yet to name the woman he cheated with
Jay Z started talking about the infidelity when he addressed the scars he still has from his past.
Those scars led to him push away his wife, 36. And that led to the cheating that she addressed in Lemonade.
‘You have to survive. So you go into survival mode, and when you go into survival mode, what happens? You shut down all emotions. So, even with women, you gonna shut down emotionally, so you can’t connect. … In my case, like, it’s deep. And then all the things happen from there: infidelity,’ he said.
He has never named the woman he cheated with. Beyonce has called her ‘Becky with the good hair.’
First she touched on his straying on Lemonade.
All better now: Here they are seen in February when she was pregnant with twins
He spills: The star said that it was scars from his past that caused him to shut down then push away his wife, 36. And that led to the cheating that she addressed in Lemonade. Seen in 2015
Then he addressed it on 4:44.
But he said that it was not planned that way and they were actually going to do a joint album.
‘We were using our art almost like a therapy session. And we started making music together. And then the music she was making at that time was further along. So, her album came out as opposed to the joint album that we were working on.’
He added: ‘We still have a lot of that music. And this is what it became. There was never a point where it was like, “I’m making this album.” I was right there the entire time.’
His side: ‘You have to survive. So you go into survival mode, and when you go into survival mode, what happens? You shut down all emotions… And then all the things happen from there: infidelity,’ he said. Seen in 2014
The music made them ‘very, very uncomfortable.’
Jay told the NYT: ‘But the best place in the hurricane is in the middle of it.
‘The best place is right in the middle of the pain. And that’s where we were sitting. And it was uncomfortable. And we had a lot of conversations.
‘[I was] really proud of the music she made, and she was really proud of the art I released.
‘And, you know, at the end of the day we really have a healthy respect for one another’s craft. I think she’s amazing.’
And Jay Z even hinted that they could have divorced.
‘You know, most people walk away, and, like, divorce rate is like 50 percent or something ’cause most people can’t see themselves.
‘The hardest thing is seeing pain on someone’s face that you caused, and then have to deal with yourself.’
She has stuck it out: Beyonce wed Jay Z in 2008 and they have three kids together: Blue Ivy, Rumi and Sir. Seen in 2016
Jay also took the time to talk about those scars and how he has faced them with the help of therapy.
‘I grew so much from the experience,’ he said.
‘But I think the most important thing I got is that everything is connected. Every emotion is connected and it comes from somewhere. And just being aware of it. Being aware of it in everyday life puts you at such a … you’re at such an advantage. You know, you realize that if someone’s racist toward you, it ain’t about you.
‘It’s about their upbringing and what happened to them, and how that led them to this point. You know, most bullies bully. It just happens. “Oh, you got bullied as a kid so you trying to bully me.” I understand.’
This understanding has caused him to soften.
Deep: Jay also took the time to talk about those scars and how he has faced them with the help of therapy. ‘I grew so much from the experience,’ he said. ‘But I think the most important thing I got is that everything is connected’
She opened the can: The beauty talked of infidelity in Lemonade
‘And once I understand that, instead of reacting to that with anger, I can provide a softer landing and maybe, “Aw, man, is you O.K.?”‘ he said.
‘I was just saying there was a lot of fights in our neighborhood that started with, “What you looking at? Why you looking at me? You looking at me?”
‘And then you realize: “Oh, you think I see you. You’re in this space where you’re hurting, and you think I see you, so you don’t want me to look at you. And you don’t want me to see you.”‘
As far as West, he said they have a lot of ups and downs.
‘I [talked to] Kanye the other day, just to tell him, like, he’s my brother. I love Kanye. I do. It’s a complicated relationship with us.’
His old pal: As far as Kanye West, he said they have a lot of ups and downs. ‘I [talked to] Kanye the other day, just to tell him, like, he’s my brother. I love Kanye. I do. It’s a complicated relationship with us’
But there have been a lot of issues.
West reportedly left Tidal in July over a money dispute, and last October, West publicly slammed JAY Z during a concert rant.
‘Kanye came into this business on my label. So I’ve always been like his big brother. And we’re both entertainers. It’s always been like a little underlying competition with your big brother.
‘And we both love and respect each other’s art, too. So it’s like, we both – everyone wants to be the greatest in the world. You know what I’m saying? And then there’s like a lot of other factors that play in it. But it’s gonna, we gonna always be good.’
His world: Jay said: ‘But not everything is perfect. ‘In the long relationship, you know, hopefully when we’re 89 we look at this six months or whatever time and we laugh at that’; here West is seen with wife Kim Kardashian in 2016
But not everything is perfect.
‘In the long relationship, you know, hopefully when we’re 89 we look at this six months or whatever time and we laugh at that.
‘There’s gonna be complications in the relationship that we have to get through. And the only way to get through that is we sit down and have a dialogue and say, “These are the things that I’m uncomfortable with. These are the things that are unacceptable to me. This is what I feel.”
‘I’m sure he feels that I’ve done things to him as well. I’m not a perfect human being by no stretch.’
Jay also has theories on why Kanye gets into hot water so often.
‘[West is] a very compassionate person. And a lot of times he get in trouble trying to help others.
‘So, I can identify with it. It’s just that there’s certain things that happened that’s not really acceptable to me. … And we just need to speak about it. But there’s genuine love there.’