Kerry Katona broke down while discussing her late husband George Kay on Sunday night’s Celebrity SAS: Who Dares Wins.
The singer and TV personality, 40, was seen speaking to show frontman Ant Middleton about her relationship with George, who died in July 2019 after eating ‘a quantity of cocaine’ at a Holiday Inn in Cheshire.
She married the embattled ex-rugby league player, 39, in 2014 and had daughter Dylan-Jorge, now seven, before splitting in 2017 amid a flurry of shocking claims of domestic violence and substance abuse in the marriage.
When asked by Ant about her emotional response to one of the challenges on the show – which was filmed last year – she said: ‘My mister died last year of a drug overdose. He was really abusive, and it just took me back to feeling really worthless.’
Pained: Kerry Katona broke down while discussing her late husband George Kay on Sunday night’s Celebrity SAS: Who Dares Wins
In Sunday’s episode, Kerry was left feeling dejected when she was hauled into the interrogation room after she failed the CS gas test and aerial walk challenge.
Her failure in the challenge and subsequent pained reaction led to Ant asking: ‘I can tell you’re stuck somewhere. I don’t know f***ing know where you’re stuck, but you’re stuck somewhere. Where are you stuck?’
Kerry responded: ‘My mister died last year of a drug overdose. He was really abusive, and it just took me back to feeling really worthless’, before she detailed how the shouting officers led to the flashbacks to her experiences with George.
She is mother to daughters Molly and Lilly-Sue with singer Brian McFadden, Heidi, 13, and Max, 12, with former husband Mark Croft, and Dylan-Jorge with George.
Hurt: She married the embattled ex-rugby league player, 39, in 2014 and had daughter Dylan-Jorge, now seven, before splitting in 2017 amid a flurry of shocking claims of domestic violence and substance abuse in the marriage (pictured in 2013)
Memories: The singer and TV personality, 40, was seen speaking to show frontman Ant Middleton about her relationship with George, who died in July 2019 after eating ‘a quantity of cocaine’ at a Holiday Inn in Cheshire
Ant asked Kerry if her children ever saw George abuse her, to which she responded: ‘They heard the shouting and saw the black eyes’, before Ant queried: ‘What did you do about that situation’.
Kerry explained that she eventually left, yet admitted: ‘I’ve made so many mistakes and my actions will have consequences on my kids.’
Speaking to the camera, Kerry, who is now due to marry fiancé Ryan Mahoney, 32, then said: ‘When George died, there was so many mixed emotions…
‘I was so angry. I was so angry at him. ‘How f***ing dare you die? Putting me and the kids through all that s***, and then you just die? The worst conversation I’ve ever had to have was with my five year old to tell her her daddy had died…
Hurt: Ant asked Kerry if her children ever saw George abuse her, to which she responded: ‘They heard the shouting and saw the black eyes’, before Ant queried: ‘What did you do about that situation’ (Kerry and George pictured in 2015)
‘How do you explain that to a baby? A t**t as he was, you know, he was still a dad. So now I’ve got to do right by my kids, because they’ve been through so much already.’
Earlier this month, an inquest revealed that George died after a drugs binge at a budget hotel where he crushed a ball of cocaine inside a sock and ‘ate’ the contents.
The sportsman collapsed with a seizure was rushed to hospital on July 5, 2019, but died later due to the excess effects of the toxic Class A substance.
Just 12 hours before the tragedy police had been called to the Holiday Inn in Sutton Weaver, Cheshire after he was seen wandering around the corridors ‘asking for someone to be his friend.’
Cute couple: The star is now engaged to Ryan Mahoney, 32 (pictured) after they met on a dating app
He was also found erratically shouting and knocking on other guests doors, with hotel staff attempting to return him to his room at one point after he claimed there were ‘wasps’ inside.
Officers said George was hallucinating while under the effects of the drug but let him stay in his room despite noticing traces of cocaine by his bathroom sink.
A policewoman was later disciplined for not searching George or arresting him for possessing cocaine. Staff called police and officers attended at 9.54pm but left when Mr Kay agreed to return to his room.
‘My first husband left me for somebody else,’ Kerry admitted she has ‘huge anxiety’ over tying the knot again because her past marriages ‘all failed’ (pictured with Brian McFadden)
Coroner Peter Sigee recorded a verdict of drug-related death at an inquest.
Kerry has spoken at length about the abusive nature of their relationship, making shocking claims about physical violence from George.
Last month, she spoke to MailOnline about the prospect of marrying again following her failed marriage to George, while she was also with Brian McFadden from 2002 to 2006 and then Mark Croft from 2007 to 2011.
Speaking about her exes, she said: ‘My first husband left me for somebody else. My second one was my drug dealer. And my third one beat the s**t out of me. So, yeah there is massive anxiety – they all failed.’
Celebrity SAS: Who Dares Wins continues next Sunday at 9pm on Channel 4.
That was then: Kerry was married to Mark Croft from 2007 to 2011 (pictured in 2008)