Asia Argento breaks her silence Monday on the suicide of her lover Anthony Bourdain in an emotional interview with DailyMailTV.
The Italian actress speaks for the first time since the chef and CNN host took his own life in a French hotel room in June.
The dramatic interview will be broadcast on DailyMailTV Monday and Tuesday. No topic was off limits as she spoke to interviewer Laura Collins
Argento said lovingly of her partner that his death is a ‘hole… that cannot be filled by anything.’
Argento, 42, had been the 62-year-old’s lover for two years.
She spoke as CNN broadcast the first of the final five episodes of Bourdain’s Parts Unknown in which he traveled to Kenya with W. Kamau Bell.
Exclusive first interview: Asia Argento speaks to DailyMailTV in her first ever interview since the death of her lover Anthony Bourdain, which she says is a ‘hole’ which cannot be replaced
Loss: Asia Argento and Anthony Bourdain had been lovers for two years before his suicide in June
Argento told DailyMailTV that her first reaction to his suicide had been ‘anger’.
‘Now… the anger kept me alive because otherwise this desperation has no end, there’s no end,’ she said.
But she said that in the months since she has been able to process her emotions more.
She said she felt anger about Bourdain ‘abandoning me, my kids’.
It is the first time Argento, a mother of two, has indicated how close Bourdain was to her son and daughter.
Bourdain left his 13-year-old daughter Ariane, by his second wife Ottavia Busia.
Argenton told DailyMailTV: ‘So… and then, I was angry, yes, for abandoning me, my kids, but now it’s been replaced, just by… this loss… this hole… that cannot be filled by anything.’
The interview is Argento’s first not just since Bourdain’s death, but since she was hit by allegations of underage sex with child actor Jimmy Bennett.
The allegations have ruptured the #MeToo movement which Argento spearheaded after describing how she was raped by Harvey Weinstein, the movie mogul.
Bennett himself spoke out on Italian television this weekend and was ridiculed for his allegation that Argento sexually assaulted him when she was 37 and he was 17.
Months of drama: Jimmy Bennett was interviewed on Italian television Sunday about his allegations that he was a victim when he had sex with Asia Argento when she was 37 and he was 17
Final series: Anthony Bourdain’s Parts Unknown’s final season began on CNN Sunday with him traveling to Kenya with W. Kamua Bell and reflecting on his unexpected late-blossoming career
The revelation that Argento and Bennett had sex led to a bitter split with her former ally, the actress Rose McGowan.
Bourdain has been pulled into the drama over Bennett, with texts published by McGowan’s new partner, model Rain Dove, showing how the chef persuaded Argento to pay the actor $380,000.
Argento will address the sex, the payment and her fractured relationship with McGowan on DailyMailTV on Tuesday.
Sunday’s CNN broadcast of Parts Unknown is the first of the season he was making when he took his own live on June 8 in a hotel in Kayserberg, near Alsace in the east of France.
Only five episodes of the series were complete and the premier contained a poignant hint about Bourdain’s state of mind as he reflected to Bell on his life.
The two were looking across protected safari lands in Kenya and drinking beers while watching grazing giraffes as Bourdain spoke of his relatively late blossom from a line chef in New York to an acclaimed author and journalist.
‘I f***ing pinch myself because I cannot f***ing believe that I get to do this or see this, ever, or that I ever would,’ Bourdain said.
‘Because at 44 years old, dunking fries, I knew with absolute certainty that I would never, ever see Rome much less this.’